If I could only hold you now, make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face...

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Delta alone made this song absolutely magnificent. Darren's version made me cry and my heart flutter. You cannot imagine how both of them make me feel. This year has been a real tough one for a lot of people. I've actually lost count of how many times I've stayed at the hospital over night, praying to God that everything will be okay. I'm just thankful for every loved one that has been hospitalized, that they come out in one piece. It might not be the same for my grand mother, but I know we'll be able to pull through.

I have faith that everything will turn out for the best. Just yesterday my heart felt something I hadn't known existed within me anymore. I didn't particularly like that feeling, but it made me realize that I am indeed alive. Emotionally obviously, otherwise I'd be talking more crazy talk than I usually do.

I'm alive baby, so I warn you now you better watch yourself. I'm not letting you go that easily. I'm alive...